Group Therapy Book Club

Thank you for helping me to calm down, when whatever it was happened to me during the bookclub. That thing happens to me sometimes... flashback?? Panic??? I don't know. I was very scared but it was a big wake up call I needed, I guess. So, thank you. Trigger warning. "Animal Cruety" While I was listening to other's story related to cat, that memory... evil killing 9 cats one after another, started with poisoned food then poisoned injections... I was watching. Evil was a chemist so he had easy access to any medications or poisons. He stole poison from hospital. I was 8 years old. Then he tried to kill me 3 times. I still have scartcissue on my leg. I left it on purpose as evidence to take him court when I grow up. I never had any problem talking about what he did. Because It was NORMAL for me. I don't know why I felt NORMAL about it. But I had major flashback during bookclub. Maybe the feeling I ignored nearly 40 years come out finally. I talked about it like it was nothing maybe because I couldn't face the reality. I survived till today with depersonalization. Like Kot suggested me, I will talk with my counselor about it again. My inner child needs a lot of care as well as cats... and my dogs, mouse, goldfish, evil killed many... What an cruel scary childhood I had... I will protect and make my buddies happy.