I'm posting on behalf of Marta:
Sorry, Kot because of my lack of computer where Iam staying, I'll let you know how it affected me this chapter so far
I felt betrayed. I felt cheated. I shut down and disassociated. I felt severe anger shaking super cold sick to my stomach
brought up all the reasons why I didn't trust, and all the reasons why I didn't trust others especially people in authority like teachers, police hospitals, staff, and others that didn't help me.
and they brought me right back to my childhood and how I was not wanted and the neglect was so severe that I was basically invisible no no thoughts no feelings no nothing but not only from my parents, but from the world, I just fell through the cracks
And I want you to know I'm not saying this because I'm feeling sorry for myself. This is just factual for me.